Tema *English below*
U sklopu Kulturpunktovog i SPID-ovog programa Kritička dramaturgija: odučavanje, pozivamo sve zainteresirane za odučavanje od sindroma uljeza (eng. impostor syndrome) na prijavu za radnu grupu “Ali doimaš se tako samopouzdano?!” koju će voditi izvođačica, pjevačica, autorica, voditeljica, kustosica i stand-up komičarka Denice Bourbon. Radna grupa održava se tijekom dva popodneva, u ponedjeljak 22. travnja (15-19h) i srijedu 24. travnja (15-18h) u prostoru Studija Ilica (Ilica 61). Radni jezik je engleski, a više informacija o konceptu, voditeljici i načinu prijave potražite u nastavku.
Riječima Denice Bourbon:
Dragi Zagrebe,
zovem se Denice Bourbon i često za mene kažu da sam “kraljica queer Beča”. Tu titulu i samoj sebi dodjeljujem, pogotovo nakon nekoliko čaša vina, kad želim izraziti dobrodošlicu novim bečkim sugrađanima_kama ili turistima_kinjama. Znam, to zvuči toliko samopouzdano da je skoro pa nepodnošljivo. Što si mislim tko sam, zar ne?
Ovaj štos koristim već godinama kako bih prikrila svoje nesigurnosti, a još više da bih se nosila sa sindromom uljeza koji mi paralizira energiju i dušu. Moja filozofija je da, ako nastavim to ponavljati, i ako natjeram i druge da to ponavljaju, konačno ću i sama u to povjerovati, a energiju koju trošim na uvjeravanje sebe da znam što radim moći ću preusmjeriti u svoj umjetnički rad. Zamislite samo TO! Ništa me ne bi moglo zaustaviti!
Sindrom uljeza zastrašujuće je i iscrpljujuće stanje koje je (u mojem slučaju) prvenstveno uzrokovano klasizmom i patrijarhatom, a često dovodi do problema s mentalnim zdravljem popust depresije, napadaja panike i sagorijevanja. Rasizam, transfobija, diskriminacija na temelju izgleda i tjelesnih sposobnosti također doprinose sindromu uljeza kod svih nas koji se ne uklapamo u kategoriju bijelog srednjoklasnog (ili višeklasnog) cishetero muškarca standardnih tjelesnih mogućnosti.
Zagrebe, znam da ovo zvuči jako teško i depresivno. Zato što tako i jest. Ali je i stiglo vrijeme da se odučimo od tih sranja i zamislila sam da to zajedno radimo u mojoj radnoj grupi. Pozivam vas da se družimo, razmjenjujemo iskustva i strategije: za scenu, za umjetnički rad, za bilo koji rad, za svakodnevicu, za bilo koju situaciju! Hajde da ismijavamo sve apsurdne situacije u kojima nam se govorilo ili nametalo osjećaj da znamo manje nego što znamo i pronađemo nove načine da pristupimo životu i tim strahovima.
(I, da budemo iskrene_i, doista jesmo puno kompetentnije_i od svih tih seronja koji vode svijet).
Važno mi je da znate da nije nužno aktivno sudjelovati, svatko je dobrodošao_la i da samo bude s nama i sluša. Bez pritiska, bez očekivanja.
Voljela bih reći “nadam se da se uskoro vidimo” s prekrasnim citatom Sarah Hagi: “Bože, daj mi samopouzdanje prosječnog bijelog muškarca”.
Lijepi pozdravi,
Denice Bourbon
O voditeljici:
Denice Bourbon je lezbijska/queer feministička izvođačica, pjevačica, autorica, voditeljica, kustosica i stand-up komičarka. Koristi humor i zabavu kao aktivistička sredstva kojima skreće pozornost na političke probleme. Njezina serija podcasta Now, Back to Me! (2019-2021) jedan je od brojnih načina na koje se pokušala nositi i riješiti svoje probleme vezane uz sindrom uljeza. 2017. godine suosnovala je queer komičarski klub PCCC*, u kojemu od 2020. djeluje kao voditeljica, uredski genije i majka komedije. Denice je vrlo glasna, čedna i poprilično dekadentna.
Za prijavu je potrebno poslati nekoliko rečenica o sebi i motivaciji za sudjelovanje. Prijave se šalju putem maila koji je potrebno nasloviti “Ali doimaš se tako samopouzdano?!” na prijave.kurziv@gmail.com.
Rok za prijavu je 21. travanj.
*Napomena o dostupnosti: ulaz u prostor nije prilagođen osobama u kolicima (dvorana se nalazi na katu bez lifta), no organizatorice će osigurati potrebnu asistenciju. Ukoliko vam je potrebna asistencija, molimo vas da to napomenete u prijavi.
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ENGLISH:
As a part of Kulturpunkt’s and SPID’s program Critical Dramaturgy: Unlearning, we invite everyone interested in unlearning their impostor syndrome to apply for a two-day working group “But you seem so confident!!?” led by performance artist, singer, author, presenter, curator, and stand-up comedian Denice Bourbon. The working group will take place on Monday 22nd (15-19.h) and Wednesday 24th (15-18.30h) of April at Studio Ilica (Ilica 61).
In Denice’s words:
Dear Zagreb,
My name is Denice Bourbon and I am very often referred to as “The Queen of Queer Vienna”.
This is a title I give myself too, especially after having had a few glasses of wine, wanting to welcome newcomers or tourists to our city. I know, it sounds confident to an extent that it becomes obnoxious. Who do I think I am, right?
This is a schtick that I have been cultivating for many years to cover up my insecurities, but most of all to deal with my energy and soul-sucking paralysing impostor syndrome. My philosophy behind it has been that if I continue repeating this, and make other people say it, I will finally believe it, and I will be able to put all the energy that I put into trying to convince myself that I do know what I’m doing into my artistic work instead. Imagine THAT! There would be no stopping me!!
Impostor syndrome is a horrible and exhausting condition that, (in my case), is primarily caused by classism and the patriarchy, and it often leads to mental health problems like depression, panic attacks and burnouts. Racism, transphobia, lookism and ableism are other contributing factors to impostor syndrome, since it is something that is there to keep everyone down who isn’t an able-bodied white cis heterosexual man, who also preferably is from the middle class and up.
I know, Zagreb, this sounds sooooo heavy and depressing. It’s because it is.
But it’s really about time to unlearn this bullshit, and that’s what I thought that we could be doing together at my working group! Let’s hang out and exchange experiences and strategies; for stage, for artistic work, for any work, for every day life, for any situation! Let’s make fun of the all the absurd situations where we were either told or given the feeling that we know less than we do, and find new ways of approaching life and those fears.
(And let’s face it, we really are so much more competent than all those asshats who are running the world.)
It is important to me that you all know that it is not obligatory to actively participate, but you are also very welcome to just join and be with us listening in. No pressures, no expectations.
I would like to say “hope to meet you all soon” with the wonderful quote from Sarah Hagi: “Lord, grant me the confidence of a mediocre white man”
With the kindest regards
Denice Bourbon
Denice Bourbon is a lesbian/queer feminist performance artist, singer, author, presenter, curator, and stand up comedian. She uses humor and entertainment as an activist tool to draw attention to political issues. Her podcast “Now, Back to Me!” (2019 -2021) was one of the many ways she tried to deal with and solve her impostor syndrome issues. In 2017 she co-founded the queer comedy club PCCC*, which she has been running alone since 2020 as a presenter, office genius and comedy mother. Denice is very loud, prude and pretty decadent.
To apply, please send a short paragraph about yourself and reasons you’d like to join us. Send these via email titled “But you seem so confident!!?” to prijave.kurziv@gmail.com.
The deadline for applications is April 21th.
*Note on accessibility: the entrance to the space is not suitable for people in wheelchairs (the hall is on a floor without an elevator), but the organizers will provide the necessary assistance. If you need assistance, please mention it in the application.
